Our Guardians

Whether you believe in God, angels, aliens, etc., every single one of us walking on this earth has a guardian. Usually, when you hear the definition of “guardian” most of the time it refers to something mysterious or spiritual. The guardian might be a friend, parent or close relative that is no longer walking on this sacred earth.

I had an experience the other evening while I was at a casino in Palm Springs that was a little bit out of the ordinary. I was also there with my good friend, Sheila, that I went to high school with 25 years ago. Now, what makes this story odd is Joe (a person I met in the casino) did not know me from Adam. Yet, what he did know was that I have an extremely important person (i.e. Sheila) in my life.  It was almost as if Joe was dropped out of a spaceship just for that moment of time to explain why Shelia has come (or returned) into my life at this certain history of time. Everything that came out of Joe’s mouth made complete and perfect sense to me.

Do you ever feel there are certain moments in this strange life that people enter to carry a message to you, even if it’s just in passing? Well, I certainly believe my big guardian (my grandfather) put Sheila in my life now and he had to send Joe down to tell me to wake the f#%k up with this woman.  Appreciate her, be kind and respectful, and do not take whatever this friendship is for granted. And as Joe went on his way; he left me with this song playing in my head.


Look Around…

“But look around
The leaves are brown
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter……”  Courtesy of the Bangles.




“Seasons change with the scenery
Weaving time in a tapestry
Won’t you stop and remember me…….”


What captivates you?

2015 has starated off with quite the bang for my blog. Writer’s block! Yes, that must mean I’m actually trying to think up crap to write. If I must truly have to start thinking what is coming up next, it’s gonna be a long year.

Now that I have over 50 something subscribers, I feel the need to impress each and every single one  of you every time the ink hits the paper. Oh, the pressure, the agony, the pain of wanting to be the dog whisper, captain recovery, the Rock God! I have news for you, it ain’t gonna happen. What is going to happen is I do my best to make you laugh, think for yourself, and educate on the little facts I do know.  I also hope, in return, that you have questions you might want to ask me. Can we say, more interactive? Let’s make this the best year yet, shall we?

Ok, I’m going to stop thinking, and start breathing as we shall see where this adventure takes us. Until next time….

My Little Band

Ok, so I normally do not promote my music. Hell, I do enough talking about myself, which I’m not all too comfortable with, writing this blog. I been tapping my skull for a week trying to figure out this dog piece I want to write about.  I guess that can wait until next week. Since this is a first, I thought I would share it with everyone.

This is the first music video I have ever made for youtube.  It features my instrumental band, The Reunion. This track is called Barcelona off our 3rd album, Closure (2002). The pictures were taken from a trip when I was in Barcelona, Spain. I hope you like it.  Enjoy!

Three Songs That Will Make You Smile!!

I must admit when it comes to music lately, I am a true, blue fan of female front women.  Coming from a heavy metal, jam band background, you maybe surprised I say this.  There’s just something about a female’s voice that eases the mind and soul.  And with this past year full of carnival rides in my life; I truly need that solace that this type of music brings.  So far, 2014 has brought some extremely catchy songs from female artists.  I present my top three favorite songs of 2014 from female musicians (in no particular order).  And the winners are:


CHRISTINA PERRI.  BURNING GOLD.  There’s something about that line, “I had enough” that rings true to my life when it comes to drugs and alcohol.  It’s definitely not ironic.


SIA. CHANDELIER.  This tune puts the C in Catchy.  You will be singing “One, two, three, one, two, three…”  all the way down the highway.


ECHOSMITH. COOL KIDS.  Not only does this song get my vote for top three, but this band (all siblings from California) wins me over, hands down, for favorite band.


“She thinks she missed the train to Mars……”

I am 41 years old.  I am currently undergoing a mid-life crises, going crazy, or in the middle of a nervous breakdown.  If that is the given situation?  Oh well, so be it.  No one is perfect, right?

There is one major factor I notice a lot with people in recovery.  (Maybe this thought contributes to my state of mind at the moment).  Addicts and alcoholics just love to talk about themselves.  A case of total, undeniable narcissism.  And yes,  I definitely fall under this category.  Find me an AA or Na meeting where a fellow alcoholic isn’t dying to tell their story; and I would tell you that you’re shit out of luck!

Yes, all these programs with an A in it that fight the horrors and trials of constant addiction are truly unreal, selfish fucking programs.  It’s all about ME, ME, ME!  Look at ME!  Listen to me!  How many “likes” or comments can I get on my Twitter or Facebook page!  Come on people, LOOK AT ME!

For me personally, yes I do like and enjoy these “A” programs.  And sure, with my history, I do need them and do attend these meetings.  But honestly, I’d rather know if  “she’s out back counting stars…”   Until next time, Enjoy!



Cover Songs (Revisted)

A few months back, I touched upon my favorite cover songs. “Careless Whisper” cover by Seether, and “Ordinary Love” done by The Deftones got my blood boiling.  There’s so many excellent cover songs out there, I decided do this segment from time to time.

Today, I look at one of my favorite female fronted bands, Lacuna Coil covering “Enjoy the Silence” originally written Depeche Mode.  Christina Scabbia is the perfect singer to rehash this 80’s hit.  They do an amazing job turning this into their own, yet sticking to the original feel.  With lyrics like “Words are unnecessary” that are powerful and meaningful, Lacuna Coil hits this cover right on the money.

Another 80’s hit, “Drive” originally done by The Cars, is overtaken here by The Deftones.  Being one of my favorite bands of all the time; The Deftones have an arsenal of amazing covers.  You may find this pop rock 80’s tune a little odd for a band like The Deftones to cover.  Yet, Chino and the boys pull this off without a hitch.  Give it a listen yourself and decide if you want to look further in The Deftones catalog.

I’ll be back with some more off the wall, mind-mesmerizing covers!